abg fahrin's wedding~

Today, me, auji n my husband went to my lovely village.. A place where I used to play n grow up.. It was a quite sometime since the last time I meet almost whole of my family members. Eating and chit-chatting, gossiping and make noise were the best time ever..I felt very near to mama..even after mama gone, when I were with them all, it feels like she is with us.. As if she also there laughing with us.

My little brother putting down so much weight until I could even feel his bone when I touched his shoulder. He used to be a plumpy person now turn to a skinny boy..maybe not dat skinny but for me n my family, he is skinny. He told me that after my mother died, his father married someone else. * I don't mind about that okay*..but the problem is, that person who used to be my stepfather neglected his own responsibilityamam my little brother only eat once a day. And evry time his father come back to the haouse *which is my house @ house where he lives with my mother* they both would get into a fight.. The only thing my little brother could do was to ride his bicycle around,without purpose.. His father only come home during the night. By day, he would go to his new wife's house..whatthe??? Pity my little brother.. How I wish to help him but me myself also have problems.. Be strong Ibik, akak n dekma will fond a way to help you..

What Should I Do (he's beautiful)

What Should I Do is a song from a korean drama entitled He's Beautiful. this song sang by the actor n actress of drama itself, Jang Geun Seuk and Park Shin Hye. This song was recorded in two different singer. The song is about is about a lover who could not let the person he/she love to go away.Even this lover did not want the person he/she love to go but there something inside him/her which made him/her cant stop the person from going away. No matter how hard he/she eager to stop the person to go away, the person would still walked away as the person do not know what was actually inside the lover's heart. so, the only the lover could do was to cry and watch from far...

the music is very nice to hear, until if we watched the drama and try to really listen to the song, the lyrics could actually melt our hearts and we could even feel the sadness inside the song..i could give credits to both singer especially Park Shin Hye for actually success in singing the song... Here, i give you the translation of the song in english..

WHAT SHOULD I DO (Park Shin Hye)

When I let you go one step further, my eyes overflow with tears
When you walk away one step further, more tears are falling
As you move away to a place where I can’t reach you, even if I reach out my hand
I can’t catch you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me, because I am only shouting in my heart
All day long I try to forget you, but I think of you again
All day long I try to say goodbye, but I think of you
Although you went to a place where I can’t hold you, even if my hand reaches out for you
I can’t find you, I can only cry
What should I do? What should I do? I can only see you
What should I do? What should I do? I love you only
I am sorry, I am sorry, can you hear me?
Please come back to me, if it’s not you, I can’t go on
What should I do? What should I do? I only have you
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving
What should I do? What should I do? You’re leaving me alone
I love you, I love you, I cry out to you
But you can’t hear me because I am only shouting in my heart

 

 bunch of love,

niera =)

thanx~!!!

hurm.. i just cant close my eyes until now.. woke up very late as me n my husband had a tiring night yesterday..now im glad to see her sleeping soundly,my dearest daughter. having her in my life is like having a new motivation to start a new life. as my dad had gone since i was 3, and so my mum, last year, the only matter for me to keep this life goes on is my husband and Auji. yes, i still has my younger sister n younger brother, but someday she will realize that she also will have a family of her own and same goes to my lilttle brother. i believe he can live with his dad in Teluk Intan,as my ex-step dad is already get married few months ago..

i know maybe i cant put my family into a wealthy life that full with everything that we ever wish for but i feel that it is more than enough if we could be like a normal family does. a family that do face some problems but, also can enjoy the life as happy as we can. i dont want my child to live the life i had before i met her father. saw my parents quarreled even in middle of the nights, shouting at each other like no body cares, it was just so painful as i could heard every words they said. having poor economy state, sometime did made me feel frustrated. but its different by now.. life changed, dramatically! =D

now, no one knows how happy n grateful i am, with all the people around me, who always be by my side... hopefully my family will be blessed by God anywhere and anytime... to my husband, thanks for everything, to my daughter, u r the  purpose of my life now, to dekma, ibik, my family n my friends, thanks for being there for me =) i do, really do love you all~!!

with a bunch of love and gratitude,

niera @ bahirah